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Assalamualaikum...suddenly thinking of me . am i too bad ? i cant answer that right ? others will . kadang kadang in a certain situation we are feeling like we dont deserve anything for good because we are not good. yes i just realize it .seriously . i cannot change others , just like others cannot change me at all . so , obviously my mistake . sorry peeps ! sorry for everything .

kita tak kan boleh paksa orang lain melakukan sesuatu yang mereka tak mampu nak buat .sama  macam kita tak mampu lakukan sesuatu yang kita memang tak mampu buat . i have made a big mistake there ! Aku tak patut paksa orang . Sekarang aku sedar yang all of that is ridiculus .

perasaan takkan wujud tanpa sebab . Pada pandangan kasar mungkin takkan nampak puncanya di mana . tapi kalau cuba difahami ... everything happend with reason .

perasaan benci tu halus sangat . its complicated . orang mungkin tak akan faham . never ... maybee.so , jangan rendahkan perasaa benci tu . sebaik mana pun kita .. perasaan benci tu tetap ada. terpulang mcam mana nak kendalikan ia . and for me i failed already . i cant control them . So , bukan senang untuk aku terima any "input" sekarang . don blame me for this . Aku silap sebab cuba compare kan diri aku dengan diri orang lain sedangkan aku tak layak langsung . and i m sorry for that . So , i m begging you dun compare mine ! like what you allsss just said " i m not wearing your shoes" . yes i am..so do you .

Aku sedar aku orang paling tak layak nasihatkan orang . Aku tak pernah ada dekat tempat orang and tak pernah lalui pun . so i ll stop . dun worry . Everyone will never hear anything 'like that' come out from my mouth again...

this entry will bring new me . insyaAllah .

rasa sekarang

assalamualaikum...hey ! gudnite ! its 1.28 am already . still awake .can t sleep . thinking of nothing . so, i m  gonna share somthing here this morning !

its about a feeling . apa yang aku rasa sekarang . for myself , feeling much better now . for my surrounding , arau is getting freez . its raining for the whole day . sangat sejuk . Alhamdulillah . for my study , i still got 1 week for classes . then its my final .ohh . its not so cool . its final . totally i m not ready yet . ahah . wish me luck for my final . and good luck for you ollss too .

okay . done updating .just want to share what i feel at this hour . hehe . goodnite and good morning !!

trying to be better

Assalamualaikum...peeps!its already 1.30 a.m and i m still can't sleep.I don't know why.Too many things in my mind. lately ni terasa hari hari yang aku lalui berat sangat. i feel weak . Aku rasa aku hilang diri aku yang dulu. Aku rasa aku tak punya kesabaran  langsung . hati aku penuh dengan amarah.fikiran aku serabut . I dun know why . i need a motivation .i need something that can bring me up just like the old days.

Apa anda rasa bila anda sedar yang anda dah terlalu banyak melakukan kesilapan. it must be rasa bersalah kan . Tapi lagi rasa bersalah bila kita sedar but we are not able to change it. Itu yang aku rasa . kadang kadang terasa yang aku and my present just good in troubling others.Ya Allah ! seriously i m feeling so weak now. Terasa macam jiwa aku kosong sangat . i m totally lost in my own world .

To others , i m really sorry for everything that i ve done, the way i behave , i m so sorry .maybe i should avoid myself with others for a moment . Maybe untill i can control myself . And im back to normal. I need time to fine the old me.

okay .. enough about that. Now , i want to tell you something. I have red satu blogger ni punya the latest entry. the entry sounds like this  if i m not mistaken . " don't judge the book by its cover" . untuk blogger ni , i think orang lain tak salah kut. maybe salah diri kita sendiri sebab buat orang menilai kita macam tu. kalau kau nak orang kenal kau dengan baik janganlah letakkan diri kau dalam keadaan yang membuatkan orang untuk susah kenal kau. Just flow with the situation . And jangan harap orang yang di atas saja untuk kenal kita . Bagi peluang juga pada orang yang dibawah untuk kenal kita. manusia semua sama . Semua ada kelebihan dan kekurangan. bukan kerja kau orang untuk menilai .

p/s : semua yang aku tulis bukan untuk ditujukan kepada sesiapa tapi just to remind myself too.I m trying to change to be a better person day by day but its so hard. But i will keep trying. Non stop.hope same goes to all of you peeps!