i wish i could change !seriously!!!!

hello ! assalamualaikum my dear blog . wow it such a very long time i haven't update anything here. no inspiration lahh nak blogging.But today tangan rasa rajin nak menaip. Okay here i just wanna share something that i wrote . You can call it a poem maybe. i m so shock i could write this but just happend  .hahaha . let see what i got for yaa ....

Kadang dalam kelam kita masih mampu berjalan

Kenapa harus jatuh dalam cerah

Kadang dalam sakit kita masih mampu tersenyum

Kenapa harus sedih dalam bersederhana

Kadang dalam sunyi kita masih mendengar

Kenapa dalam riuh kita terasa sunyi

Masa berjalan tak pernah berhenti

Merubah setiap detik yang kita ingini

Andai hati jadi puncanya

Biarkan segala rasa itu singgah

Kerna aku tak punya kuasa merubah rasa

Andai goyah

Pegang lah hati

haha....how was that? i m proud actually because i m the one who create this .its a WOW !!!

okay ! next topic ..... actually i really hate my environment . sreriously i hate that. it makes me feel like i m not belong to my own life . why i m being like this . i thought i 've being bad enough but i m still stuck here. everytime i try i just can't do that .i wanna hurt people that hurting me but i just couldn't. when i already did that why i m the one that feel guilty? why ? why ? orang lain boleh ja buat but why not me?stresss!!

i wanna be like other people , like them...do whatever they wanna do,talk whatever they wanna talk without think !!!!! i really wish i could be like that .now i m trying and keep trying keeepppppp tryinggg and the worst part is me , keep feel that 'guilty' . Argghhhhhhhhh !! 

what to do ???? 

assalamualaikum ... helloo and morning !! 1.06 am. as usual i can t sleep . huh! so ? what to do . tiba tiba teringat nak blogging .

okay ! actually ..... me suppose to be in holiday mood but i am not . -________- .sebabnya aku buat intersesi . tapi kannnnnn its kinda fun mehhh . focusing on 1 subject for 1 month . a little bit rush but come onnnn lah , 1 subject ja kot . seriously a very precious study time for me ! kannn best kalau sem biasa pun macam ni . hahaha . agaknya bila aku dapat grad dip. tu ? #stupidquestion

now lets check out the routine .. ermmmm . BORING !! sangat . 2 hours class for one day . the rest? ahahaha .. mati kutu lahh ceritanya . this stuation make me stuck in few options :
 
1-tido
2-study
3-laptop

so, mana satu the best option ? for me its not an option . Semuanya lemau . hahaha . tido ? pening lah tido lama lama . study ? 1 hours and its limited okay . laptop? movie and internet . hmmm dah tak tahu nak tgk movie apa dah haa . internet dah tak tahu nak surf apa dah haa . hahaha #sedih

tapi tak pa lah . Sabar untuk satu bulan sahaja . Good luck me !
and good night people ! dream suweeettt !

problems create 'something'

hello assalamualaikum ... its early in the morning . 3.00 am . wehoooo . lamanyaaaa tak jenguk di sini . Rindu nak blogging tapi the time and the mood doesn't match . haha .

But for today ! i got one !

life is not easy . since we born it is really not easy . Problem start as soon as we enter this beautiful world. It was like human is born to create problem , get problem and stuck in it like there s no exit . haha . how cruel i am when describing things .

But , come to think of it .. don t you realize that problem actually coloured your life , your journey as a human .don t you ? i think YES!

First, analyse the situation here peepsss !!! dari masalah itulah memberi kita sejuta rasa . dari masalah kita belajar berfikir luar dari kotak pemikiran , kita belajar rasa penat , rasa marah , rasa putus asa , rasa benci but there are also the ositive side of it like dari masalah kita belajar mencari peluang , kita kenal erti kepuasan ,kita kenal erti usaha , kita rasa gembira dan mampu tersenyum instead of bersedih and dumped in high depression. The most importance part is we learn how to appreciate ;D

Simple opinion from me . haha . Its true right ? i hope you think so . Because my experience teach me everything and that equal to the problrm am facing all this time!

awwwrite you allssss ! sleeping time ! 'Good nite' !

p/s : harap maaf di atas kepusingan ayat di atas . hope the messege reach you well peepss ! :D

this is new

hye assalamualaikum.. lama tak update my blog .really wanted to write something here but kemalasan teramat sangat . But there are too many story in me . about me , friendship , study ... and of course the jimba time too . #babybaby5 #piranha3DD.

Seriously too many things to update . kalau pasal friendship the whole story boleh google mrs Affiqah's blog.
Kalau pasal berjimba pulak of course lah sila google fatinhatta's blog + mrs Affiqah's blog. The whole story tersimpan rapi dekat situ . hewhew .Konklusinya , it was a very hard time but the happiest memory ever . Come on .. life is not easy so , for sure there may be the hardest things we through a lot TOGETHER. That s what make  it beautiful .

hah ! past is past . so , now let s talk about now ! This week sgtlah busy . I got two test yang sangat genting . and the worst part is i can t even  understand anything . Arrrgghhhhhh ! stresss ! i don t want to repeat any paper again ! i don t want to face that feeling again ! it is a hurt when you found that you failed ! the feeling that you had when you know there are too many people dissapointed with you . its hurt :'(

Ya Allah , kenapa susah sangat aku nak faham that subject .when i think of it i cry . Aku takut . Takut aku tak boleh past that paper.Algebra , qmt200 ... be nice plishhhh . i want you. cukup la sekali aku dh kecewakan ramai orang . aku tak nak repeat lagi .

Esok test qmt 200 . Aku tak faham apa pun . Kawan aku dh ajar and aku faham sikit tapi still tak boleh jawab soaln. i can t think at all. i even can t solve one . Sedang kan test ni last hope aku . tapi kalau aku tak boleh jawab ......

hewwww .... i ll try my best . wish me luck uolll :)