i wish i could change !seriously!!!!

hello ! assalamualaikum my dear blog . wow it such a very long time i haven't update anything here. no inspiration lahh nak blogging.But today tangan rasa rajin nak menaip. Okay here i just wanna share something that i wrote . You can call it a poem maybe. i m so shock i could write this but just happend  .hahaha . let see what i got for yaa ....

Kadang dalam kelam kita masih mampu berjalan

Kenapa harus jatuh dalam cerah

Kadang dalam sakit kita masih mampu tersenyum

Kenapa harus sedih dalam bersederhana

Kadang dalam sunyi kita masih mendengar

Kenapa dalam riuh kita terasa sunyi

Masa berjalan tak pernah berhenti

Merubah setiap detik yang kita ingini

Andai hati jadi puncanya

Biarkan segala rasa itu singgah

Kerna aku tak punya kuasa merubah rasa

Andai goyah

Pegang lah hati

haha....how was that? i m proud actually because i m the one who create this .its a WOW !!!

okay ! next topic ..... actually i really hate my environment . sreriously i hate that. it makes me feel like i m not belong to my own life . why i m being like this . i thought i 've being bad enough but i m still stuck here. everytime i try i just can't do that .i wanna hurt people that hurting me but i just couldn't. when i already did that why i m the one that feel guilty? why ? why ? orang lain boleh ja buat but why not me?stresss!!

i wanna be like other people , like them...do whatever they wanna do,talk whatever they wanna talk without think !!!!! i really wish i could be like that .now i m trying and keep trying keeepppppp tryinggg and the worst part is me , keep feel that 'guilty' . Argghhhhhhhhh !! 

what to do ????